Day four of writing retreat I have finally rediscovered how I work.
Apparently at least for this book, I have to write in circles until I get the general sense of how it is supposed to unfold. This also includes emailing/desperately calling critique partners until one of them points out something very obvious about my character that resolves what was bugging me about how the book began. Then I no longer have to sit and plot instead of writing.
Same critique partner provides me with new music that helps me round out my playlist for the book. (I had the angry girl punk, but desperately needed some dark electronica/industrial/gothy stuff and I have been out of that scene for like 10 years)
Then I rediscover how I do the actual writing, which as I figured does not have to do with actual counting of words or even writing for specific blocks of time. I have a METHOD wherein I read over and tweak what was already written. The tweaks make me feel good and help sustain production of new actual good words. Eventually energy fades and I write crap, BUT I DON’T WORRY ABOUT IT because I will go back to it in the morning, polish and then move on. OMG it is so simple. It is probably what a lot of people do. I know now that it is what I do, but seriously the past year or so has been so rough, plus I’ve been doing either revisions or this figuring out of new idea/choosing of new idea or so long that I FORGOT.
Sadly I only have two days of retreat left to put this into practice, but hey it’s something. Plus I got to see desert for the first time, weeee!!!!